Knowledge of Self

I spent most of my life worried about what other people thought about me. I dressed the way the popular people dressed. I modeled my speech after people I thought were cool. It became a way of life for me until I reached my 40s.

I think an internal switch is initiated when one reaches their 40s. It’s like a fresh start but with all the wisdom acquired from previous decades. When I was in my 20s, I dreaded my 30s. In my 30s, I feared my 40s. Now that I’ve reached my 40s, I can honestly say this is the happiest I’ve ever been. I feel comfortable in my skin and dress for comfort and not impressions. I leave the house in hoodies without makeup. I speak the silly things that pop into my mind and laugh out loud regardless of who’s around me.

I wish there was secret formula to help people bypass the difficulties in life to reach the pinnacle of happiness but I don’t think the universe was designed for short cuts. Every single heartbreak and setback became building blocks to the Warrior Queen I am today. I used to suffer from deep depression (fairly recently) and am a living testament of a person who turned their life around through the power of positive thinking, law of attraction, changing my attitude, and good old fashioned prayer.

Yesterday, I found myself working on my laptop in a hoodie and eating cereal and it felt so organic. That’s happy me in a nutshell: hoodies and cereal.

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